Sickness (painted white)

The room was empty, because of the white-painted walls it felt like reaching out for heaven.

Fresh snow that covered the earth with an ice-cold blanket, with the comfort that it held by being so clean with no mistakes yet marked by footprints or skid marks.

Nothing had the chance to ruin it yet.

As I entered the room, it felt like a save place to start over, to clear my thoughts and feel peace for a silent moment. Time to gather my thoughts and sort things out, but then.

I threw up the words without thinking, let the words slip over my lips without any control over my tongue. At that moment there was no existence of a conscience, I wasn’t aware that the clock was still ticking, minutes pasted by and it was already to late to take it back; the words hit the floorboard before I could stop them, packed the room with an intense silence.  I realized then what I did, what I said and It felt like the clock had stopped ticking after my conscience struck. Nauseating after saying the things that I should have kept to myself.

Sickness (n.);

“The feeling or fact of being affected with nausea or vomiting.”

 

The white-painted room that made you feel like you were reaching out for heaven, seemed Like fresh snow that covered the earth with an ice-cold blanket, with the comfort that it held by being so clean with no mistakes yet marked by footprints or skid marks; was ruined.

Isaiah 1:18: “Come now, let us reason together, says the Lord: though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red like crimson, they shall become like wool.

“I ruined it, I ruin everything.” I whispered to myself and also trying to keep my cool. Breathing in and out, completely in shock  and afraid of what God might think of me. Will he be upset or angry at me for saying the things I said without thinking?

‭‭James‬ ‭1:19‬:“Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger;”

“Fresh snow that covered the earth with an ice-cold blanket, with the comfort that it held by being so clean with no mistakes yet marked by footprints or skid marks.” This is a thought that most of us have while going through a situation, we are longing for a clean environment to start over. It’s like going to college after high school; nobody knows your past  mistakes, you’re a whole new person given the opportunity to start over. But with God, a new day is a new chance to say “Game over, I surrender.”

You have to realize that every morning when you wake up God is giving you the chance to start over. Nothing is ruined in the eyes of God, what to you looks like broken or wounded, God sees as mended. Being able to talk to God is an important part of your relationship with him. Don’t bottle things up until you crack, just  because God saw what happened doesn’t mean he doesn’t want you to reach out to him. It’s okay to let it all out, scream if you have to but remember to keep your word and remain faithful to God.

‭‭1 Peter‬ ‭5:7‬: “Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.”

You know sometimes we think that running off to a ‘clean’ environment is the answer to ease the pain. But sometimes in all the mess that we’re standing in comes fort a piece of art, the kind God wanted in the first place. He loves you for who you are, and for who you are becoming.

So don’t worry about making any mistakes by leaving any skit marks, because mistakes were made to learn from and honestly it only makes us wiser.

 

xo, Gely

From a mess to a message

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God is truly great and his timing is perfect. He took something that was important to me, gave it a huge spin and what at that moment seemed like a mess turned into a message:

“Man has nothing on this earth that is theirs, all what is made through the hands of man is fully made out of Gods power. Nothing on this earth belongs to you, instead look at the havens and all its greatness shall be truly yours.”

Inspiration can come from any place at anytime, if you take time to listen or use your imagination. You can use it on writing, singing, dancing, preaching etc. Sometimes that inspiration can turn into another message to help others, I think that’s ‘Gods will’.

“Pen and paper, for my work is not done yet. It isn’t I who is making it. A work in progress, from shatters pieces glued together to finish the broken pieces. He took his time to pick up the pieces. Where has my mind gone to, for I was distracted by the ways of living and focused by a reflection of selfish giving. It wasn’t I who was making it, but he who wants to restore everything.” 

At times you tell yourself: “I don’t think that God is talking to me, maybe I’m not spiritually there yet.” But he is, see; God is talking to you ALL the time! The music you listen to that gives you butterflies and feel the need to praise him. The movies you watch that make you cry Continue reading

Tornadoes

Who am I to say that I am in the light while I am still walking through darkness, change a world in 6 days and do as I want to on my own terms?

God will bring many tornadoes (storms) in our lives, not to destroy us, not to hurt us or send us into the wrong direction. But to test our loyalty and faithfulness and guide us to the right path. You may not understand what he is doing now, but soon you will. These storms were created because of what we did in the past that seemed right at that time, but  sometimes what seems right can be wrong decisions and cause us to stumble.

God will never put you through something you cannot handle, he would never put you in a place that can lead you to internal darkness.

Things happen for a reason and mostly because of the decisions we made in our lives, a long time ago we learned this in bible study.

1 John 1:5-10: This is the message we have heard from him and proclaim to you, that God is light and in him there is no darkness at all. If we say that we have fellowship with him while we are walking in darkness, we lie and do not do what is true; but if we walk in the light as he himself is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin.  If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he who is faithful and just will forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 10 If we say that we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.

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Through The Fog

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James 4:13 – 17; Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit”—yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.” As it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil. So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin.

Didn’t see a thing, but I was in peace. 

Didn’t panic for a moment, when I should have been scared.

I knew that he was with me, while I was still in distress

But let me tell you that he took my fear and stress away in the first two sentences.

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The beginning 

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭139:13: “For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.”

I looked at her and for the first time I thought about her little body developing, how each organ will fit in her little body, how her brain must work and how she sees things, thinks about things and how she sleeps. No worries or  care about what others think about her, peaceful and quiet after she had her food and moment to cry for it.

Staring in the eyes of a new born child, while she’s just staring back at you. What is she thinking about or what is she feeling? Pretty she is, in the eyes of her creator, he has a great plan for her future.

Psalm 139:14: “I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.”

Sometimes I look at my own skin and I am amazed by what I see, God made us with so many details and wrote stories about each one of us; Paulo will be a pastor, Emily will write about Gods love, Jessica will have a Christian tv show, Jon will help teens reconnect. Of course there will be a lot more to read in his book of life, but he thought  about us, he cared and still does. It’s beautiful to think about how small someone or something started out and grew to be someone or something bigger, the progress is something to enjoy. 

It takes time to grow and understand things, for some longer than others but God has everything planned out so there is no need to worry. I thought about the trees and the plants, how they grow and become beautiful, carry fruits for animals, insects and even humans. How humans marry and have children and those children  have children in the future to make the world (the people in it) a little better with the talent that they recieved. 

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭139:16‬: “Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.”

In the beginning there was you and God created you with so much care, he didn’t creat you to fit in or be a slave of the world. He created you with love and patients, talents and freedom to glorify his name and have internal hapinnes. To make those who stumble stand up and follow him, talk about him like your favorite band, stalking him like a crazy fan who wants to know everything and come to him with all your worries and pain like your best friend. God is the one and only that will never forsake you, why would someone who put so much though in creating you leave you in the dust? God is no human he is God, the one God; the alpha and omega. 

Xo, Gely

Juanita Bynum – The Heart

Matthew 15:30:And great crowds came to him, bringing with them the lame, the blind, the crippled, the mute, and many others, and they put them at his feet, and he healed them,”

Remember that one time in church when your heart was full of joy and you wanted to scream and sing out songs of praise, but you didn’t? Or when your heart urge you to talk about God’s love but you kept your mouth shut to avoid judgement? These are the moment when the holy spirit wants to take over. Our God is great, our God is love and he will always be there for us.

Once again a friend of mine send me this video, its’ a life changer.

 

Xo, Gely

 

 

Social Contacts

 

Proverbs 13:20: “Whoever walks with the wise becomes wise, but a companion of fools suffer harm.”

A friend of mine always uses the quote: “Good people bring the good in people.” That’s something to think about, do you surround yourself with ‘good’ people? Do they bring out the ‘good’ in you?

These questions can get  you through 2016, nobody said you had to hold on and poison yourself with negativity. If you have friends or people surrounding you that only bring out the bad in you, what kind of development are you creating?

If you walk with sinners, you tend to sin easily. If you walk with liars, you become a liar. If you walk with troublemakers, you become a troublemaker.

Proverbs 1:11-16: If they say, “Come with us, let us lie in wait for blood; let us ambush the innocent without reason;  like Sheol let us swallow them alive, and whole, like those who go down to the pit; we shall find all precious goods, we shall fill our houses with plunder; throw in your lot among us;  we will all have one purse”— my son, do not walk in the way with them; hold back your foot from their paths, for their feet run to evil, and they make haste to shed blood.”

If you surround yourself with people who are spontaneous, you become one also. But if you decide to walk with those who turn to darkness it will damp your light.

When it comes to socializing we are just like children, trying to learn how to make the right motions and say the right words. We copy and past whatever we see or hear into our own personalities and doing.

Proverbs 12:26: One who is righteous is a guide to his neighbor, but the way of the wicked leads them astray.”

Change your ways today and be the light for others, that they may wonder what good you’ve been up to and therefore wonder about Gods wonderful work.

Xo, Gely

#3| What is love ?

yes1 Corinthians 13:4-7: Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.”

In the last 2 months I’ve learned a lot about loving others, ourselves and about how to be patient and it’s time to step up my game! Not just me, all the beautiful ladies in this world.

Love is crazy, “we love because he first loved us”

That moment when you feel like you’re not good enough, wrong. When you don’t feel beautiful, wrong. When you feel useless, wrong!

You are good enough for God but you can always be better, you are beautiful enough because he created you and you are never useless because God has always something for you to do or learn.

As a lady we have to know and do certain  things before we get married. We need to learn how to cook, be independent, take care of the house hold, children etc.

A friend of mine send me a ceremony: No More Sheets by Juanita Bynum. The most beautiful thing that stayed with me was “you need to treat your man in the way you treat God.” (not exactly in those words) I never thought of relationships in that way; loving someone the way you love God. It makes sence but I never thought about it.

When you’re single, in a relationship or struggling with a break up or divorce, listen to this ceremony even if you’re not. It can open up a whole new world for you, I know it did for me.

After watching this ceremony I realised that I wasn’t ready yet. Not only am I just to young, I have a lot to learn before I can take care of someone I am going to spend the rest of my life with. We are never finished learning new things in life but that doesn’t mean we won’t end up with the man of our dreams or an even better person that we could ever dream of. Take things slow and let God do the rest, you just keep on focusing on preparing yourself for your man. Gods time and not ours.

Xo, Gely

Angels & Demons

tumblr_njadrgLHcs1qfsx96o1_500Angels and demons are real, out of nowhere I thought about Angels. I never really understood why or how there are  Angels and demons, so I took some time to figure this out.

Colossians 1:16:  “For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him.”

After I saw I thriller on TV with my parents (with half my eyes closed) I felt haunted, ever since middle school I never watched horror movies or thrillers, people would ask me a thousand times why and tel me it’s not scary, but my answer was and will always be; because I don’t like it. In middle school I came to realization that scary movies could take away a whole month of a goodnight sleep, it made me think of the “what if’s”. “What if there’s a ghost in my bedroom, “what if someone’s really watching me in my sleep.”

As a massive Pretty Little Liars fan I watched the Ravenswood spin-off , I couldn’t sleep for days. After watching the 10 episodes spin-off, I learned that the devil is slowly trying to get to our minds, giving us suicidal thoughts, anger, fear etc. To work against God. I’m not writing that this it a good way to learn what’s good or bad (by watching terrifying movies), but if we think clearly all the things that we assume are made up were twisted into something that we couldn’t recognize.

2 Corinthians 11:14: “And no wonder, for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light.”

Now days things are hidden, for example; cartoons seem harmless but there are many hidden things like backward messages and signs. I’m not writing this to scare you but it’s the simple truth, you should be careful with what you watch because the devil is trying to hypnotize you with the things you least expect and or seem harmless to you.

Jude 1:6: “And the angels who did not stay within their own position of authority, but left their proper dwelling, he has kept in eternal chains under gloomy darkness until the judgment of the great day.”

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Angels are spiritual beings who were created by God, and some  Angels are even invisible. Angels also help humans.

Colossians 1:16: For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him.

Ephesians 3:10: “To the intent that now the manifold wisdom of God might be made known by the church to the principalities and powers in the heavenly places”

Job 4:15-18: Then a spirit passed before my face; The hair on my body stood up.It stood still, But I could not discern its appearance. A form was before my eyes; There was silence; Then I heard a voice saying: ‘Can a mortal be more righteous than God? Can a man be more pure than his Maker? If He puts no trust in His servants, If He charges His angels with error.”

Hebrews 1:14: Are not all Angles ministering spirits sent to serve those who will inherit salvation?”

 

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Demons are fallen angels, banished from heaven with Satan because they rebelled against God. They are often in disguise and that’s why God forbids the occult, seances, Ouija boards, witchcraft, channeling, or the spirit world. Demons can also influence people to sin.

Revelation 12:3-4: “Then another sign appeared in heaven: an enormous red dragon with seven heads and ten horns and seven crowns on his heads.  His tail swept a third of the stars out of the sky and flung them to the earth.”

Deuteronomy 18:10-12:Let no one be found among you who sacrifices their son or daughter in the fire, who practices divination or sorcery, interprets omens, engages in witchcraft, or casts spells, or who is a medium or spirits or who consult  the dead.  Anyone who does these things is detestable to the Lord; because of these same detestable practices the Lord your God will drive out those nations before you.”

Xo, Gely

Evangelism ’15

It’s feels great to do something for God.

Luke 10:1-3: After this the Lord appointed seventy-two others and sent them two by two ahead of him to every town and place where he was about to go.  He told them, “The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field. Go! I am sending you out like lambs among wolves. Do not take a purse or bag or sandals; and do not greet anyone on the road. “When you enter a house, first say, ‘Peace to this house.’

Saturday, April 18 was a great day, it was the first time I went evangelizing. People from the Maasbach church in The Hague came and some from Breda, I had a blast! We dressed up as a Camel (that looked like a dog), lam, lion and crocodile. This was part of a game, every kid had to find all the animals and If they did they got a stamp on their card they got from the first animal they found. If every kid found all of the animals they got a bag of candy with a note on it. (bible verses I assume) It was great it really was! I made a new from, she goes to the Maasbach church in The Hague. We talked about our favorite food and stuff, which was kind of hard. I’m so shy I can’t even make a normal conversation, I laugh a little too much when I’m nerves and sometimes I even say weird things. Anyway I did it, we even made plans to hang out sometime. Our pastor also hand out some cool bracelets with I ‘heart’ Jesus on them. I just want to write this as a thank you note, because God made it way more perfect than I thought it would be.

Luke 5: 27 -23: After this, Jesus went out and saw a tax collector by the name of Levi sitting at his tax booth. “Follow me,” Jesus said to him,  and Levi got up, left everything and followed him. Then Levi held a great banquet for Jesus at his house, and a large crowd of tax collectors and others were eating with them. But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law who belonged to their sect complained to his disciples, “Why do you eat and drink with tax collectors and sinners?” Jesus answered them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.”

Thank you God, that I could experience what I’ve experienced. Letting others know about you without speaking, letting others smile by a simple custom  and making people question about their doing in a good way. Some even asked for prayer and others turned their back on us but they still respected our doing, by telling without actually talking about you. Just by a simple act of kindness and giving. Thank you God.

Xo, Gely

 

TheAnimaSeries: Message To All Woman

I love this, I love this so much. A while ago a friend (Rosy Serendipity) recommended me a couple Christian YouTubers , and TheAnimaSeries is on of my favorite. 

We are all children of God and so beautiful made, we as children of God may largechoose to follow him, be one with him and praise him. Be strong and wise, kind and helpful. God made Eva out of Adam’s rip, where would we be withoutGod?. You are beautiful, smart, funny, kind..  Everything that is said in this video bellow. We should not compere ourselves to each other because we are all beautiful and unique. Girls wear your crown as you walk through this world, you may see yourselves as princess of our heavenly father, let everyone see the difference when you have a God in your heart who is so strong. You are so beautiful.. (:

Xo, Gely

3 Little Reasons Why

3 Little reasons why, we can be happy with what God did and is doing for us. I have a couple of friends who I look up to, they are so wise and kind and have a faith that makes me want to know more. I want things huge with a big bang, easy and fast, but that’s not how it works and it takes time and patient. 3 simple little things to get through life.


Beauty


1. You’re so pretty, beautiful and wonderfully made. Don’t compare yourself with the girls who get the most attention, already have cute boyfriends, are loved by everyone and wear the newest and most expensive clothes. Don’t be scared about not fitting in with the rest, because you are and dress differently. And DO NOT fear of not being good enough, because God made you good enough.

Why? You don’t have to fear about anything, because God loved us before we were born, he knew us before we were born and he will protect us with all of his love.

Psalm 139: 13-15: For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.

1 Peter 3:3-4: Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.


Family


2. God doesn’t like it when we as brothers and sisters fight. Imagine your parents hearing you fight with your brothers or sisters, saying ugly words to each other by tearing each other apart. You need to love, protect en help each other, because that’s what family is all about. Not only family, but every human being in this world because we’re actually all a huge family; children of God.

Why? It hurt because you are working against each other and that’s not what God wants, it’s the devils way of breaking you apart by struggling to seek for God. Just as God, your parents will get disappointed.

1 John 4:7: Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God.

John 4:20: If anyone says, “I love God,” and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen cannot love God whom he has not seen.


Fear


3. Fear is something that could eat us alive, if it is about school, friendship, marriage, a job etc. Fear is always around the corner waiting for the perfect moment to hunt you down. It could eat us alive but it won’t! Don’t fear about your test, you’ll do great just study and let God do the rest. Don’t be afraid of those who want to bring you down. And DO NOT fear of something that may not even happen.

Why? Because I remember that every time that I went to a new school as the ‘new kid’ I was scared of the things that didn’t even happen, because God was watching over me at took care of it. If he did this for me why wouldn’t he do it for you?

Psalm 23:4: Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

Psalm 27:1: The LORD is my light and my salvation whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life of whom shall I be afraid

I hope these ‘3 little reasons why’ helped you think about how wonderful you are and how amazing our God is by always protecting, loving and helping us.

Xo Gely

Communicate

John 14:16

“I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may be with you.”

Romans 10:17

“So then faith [cometh] by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.”

We often think that going with the flow is the best way to live life instead of going with the heart and soul. We listen to worldly music and watch movies, study the world every day until we’re 23. Later we work and become slaves of the world because yeah.. You think that’s what you supposed to do,  bye studying and becoming more focused on what you should do and how you should look, if people like you or dislike you. It’s okay to study and work to earn your money for food or to pay rent, but while you’re doing those things on a daily bases don’t you just stop and wonder what you’re  actually doing ? In those moments when you start to think about what you’re doing in this world, you should pray and communicate with God, you should follow the word of God and remind yourself why he gave his only son to die because of our sins. He, Jesus loved us so much that he was willing to give up his live. You should also spread the word of Jesus with the people who also believe, not only them but also the non-Christians who might be interested in the word of Jesus. I’m a shy person for example, and I usually don’t communicate much with people because I don’t know what to say or what to do, or I think that they might get annoyed by me if I start the conversation. I always expect the worse, I know that one day God will take this fear away from me. I’m praying for it and I will continue doing this.

Are you also dealing with this problem ? Then there is this website called Fervr where teens all over the world sort of communicate, with advise and articles about the bible and the Christian ways of living and the difficult we’re facing while going through life. I talked about this website a while ago, are you interested ? Clink on this link.

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Xo, Gely

Family

 

1 John 4:7-10 

“Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love. In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins”

 Love is something so powerful and in August I’ve been focused on this because of my family, love includes family and forgiveness.

Last Friday my sister got engaged and I was really happy for her, we met her fiances brothers and sisters and they were all very nice too bad they live in Russia and Angola. I just known them for 4 days and I already love them and accept them for who they are, even before I met them I was so thrilled and in love with the fact that my family was getting bigger.

I just want to say that family is very important, you should tell them you love them every single day because you’ll never know if there will be another day.

Family’s where made to accept each other for who they are and to teach each other the will of God. The amazing part about meeting my new brothers from Russia was when I got home from church and cleaned up before the rest got home, I was listing to Hillsong Young & Free – Wake and one of the guys knew the song (always fantastic when someone knows your favorite jam haha) and started to sing. I know it sounds simple but I thought it was amazing. They are also fantastic dancers like.. wauw, seriously haha.

 I had so much fun meeting them all, and August was certainly  my favorite because of all the beautiful things I’ve learned about love and family.

Reminder: Tell someone you love them, it doesn’t matter if you haven’t spoken in forever. Just tell them you love them dearly.

Xo, Gely

What is love ?

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1 John 4:7  

“Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God.”

Love is not envious, boastful, rude, self seeking or being angry and it certainly isn’t about holding stuff against each other. Love is about being patient, kind, truthful and protecting. It is about putting the person you love first, even before yourself. Love each other in the way that God loves you. 

Matthew 5:43-48  

“You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you,  so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust.  For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet only your brothers, what more are you doing than others? Do not even the Gentiles do the same?  You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect.” 

Love shouldn’t be stressful and you should never settle down for less, you deserve better and you deserve more. God is saving your future love for the perfect moment to bring him or her to you. Maybe you already found him or her and that is great! But just remember that it if feels right it is right, if it gives you second thoughts that you’re not good enough and worthless, this person may not be the person God wants you to be with. As I already wrote, love is about being patient. But don’t worry if you’re having a stressful time thinking about whether or not the person you love may not love you back, you should pray. Put God first in every situation that you’re in and he will help you, tell God how you feel and he’ll make it easier for you to see the truth, pray and let God do the rest!

Me and and my friend talked to a guy online because we were bored and acting all crazy, but this guy was so sad and he asked us how we could be this happy. We told him that we were trying to have fun because we were bored, and then we asked him why he was so upside because he said that he could not be as happy as we were. He told us that his girlfriend cheated on him after 2 years and it broke his heart. We felt so bad for him so were trying to cheer him up, we couldn’t talk to him after that because his battery died. That was so sad! I told him that maybe this girl wasn’t the right one for him and that I didn’t know him but still I felt like he deserves best. What I’m trying to say is that some things don’t go as hoped and that might hurt you allot, but if it isn’t meant to be it will be because God has something much better in store for you!

 Xo, Gely

I am here

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Matthew 17:20: “He replied, “Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you. ”

Titus 1:2: “a faith and knowledge resting on the hope of eternal life, which God, who does not lie, promised before the beginning of time,”

It is a tough world we live in with many questions and distractions. I always thought that if I did my own things in my own way and cared less about what others said I would be okay. I never thought that it would be so hard not to care. I always thought about how I was going to leave a mark in this world when I felt alone, but life isn’t about leaving a mark in this world. It’s about telling others who already left a mark in this world and died because of our sins, Jesus Christ. I have always been different in middle school and never had such close and good friends to be honest, I just had two and that was enough for me to be happy. One of them is a guy I wrote my post “Dear Friend about and the other one is a girl who’s pretty much fantastic and amazing (I’m not writing any names down). Moving on to high school things got messed up and I lost them both, well I didn’t lose them but we barely communicated. “Dear friend” moved far away and Pretty-much-fantastic-and-amazing-girl got new friends and I didn’t felt like coming between them. I went to high school and I knew some people from middle school and others from somewhere else.. I had a few friends, but they were just fun to hang out with.

Where am I getting with this story ? 

I felt alone even though I always had people around me when I thought that I would be left alone. And in those moments when my thought turned out to be false I knew God was watching over me. But still I faced all those people everyday and they talked to me and were nice, but friends? For me friendship was like the movies and yeah maybe I watched to much Disney but I never felt like I had real friends. In these 2 years of high school I had a friend, let’s name her The crazy blond. The crazy blond and I never talked about what went on in our brains, we just had fun and for some reason I can say that she is a real friend because she was always there. She wasn’t the only one, there were 3 more people that I could call real- and best friends.

Moving on to my 3th year of high school in a different city at a different school. I got the friends I prayed for, a group of people who accept each other for who they are and listen to their stories to help each other out. It was like a dream and I am so thankful for them ! But still, in some moments I feel left alone. I feel left alone because in some moments they talked about drinking, drugs, partying, work and boyfriends (they don’t do drugs or drink alcohol). And I’ll be like; I don’t do drugs or alcohol, I can’t dance and I don’t go to party’s in the city and I don’t have a boyfriend or a Job. Easy to say that I don’t care but I do, why? I don’t have any best friends who live nearby, yes some but because of my new school we can’t hang out that much anymore, so I’m more often in the city where I go to school and I think that they might as well forgot about me, so I’m afraid to ask if we could hang out. It sucks because I’m in a rush to hang out with people so I won’t be feeling alone after a fun day, but still even when I’m with my friends I feel alone. Maybe it isn’t the fear of having a low number of friends who will maybe not remember you when your gone. It is the fear of running out of faith like oxygen. The moment you can’t breath because your losing the thing that you need.

 My Friends are my angels and oxygen is a helping object you can’t see or touch, but so is God and I need God like oxygen to feel free and breath the holy spirit in and out again. My pastor said that the world is keeping us busy, too busy that we can’t even have time to spent with God and I agree. But the thing is that we are keeping our self’s busy too. After a long day of school or work we choose to watch non-stop TV series or play with our smart phones instead of connecting with God. I would lie if I said that I don’t do that but I do. And now that school is almost over I came to realize that I was too busy with  what would happen if my friends didn’t remember me when I would be gone, my finales, the clothes I wear, the school I would go to in 2 years or if someone would ever like me for me in the way that my friends do. I don’t have to worry because God is watching over me and in return I need to seek for him.

2 Timothy 1:7

“For God not given us the spirit of fear; but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.”

Xo, Gely

ps: this is the longest personal post I ever posted and I hope you liked it.

Fervr

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Fervr

This is a amazing website for Christian teenagers, about the bible and problems you can overcome, it’s simply a guide for teenagers from 13-18 years old who don’t know what to do in this jungle full of madness called earth. This website helps you think about things and wonder if it is the right thing to do for yourself, helps you think about love, family and friends and many more other things. Publishes daily articles, reviews and videos. The topics are mostly about Christian living, theology, pop culture and current affairs. You can follow Fervr on Twitter and like it on Facebook for a daily update, you can  also sign up for a weekly e-mail. I would recommend this website to everyone, if you’re a Christian or not it helps allot. At least it helped me and I’m happy that I found this blog! (:

Xo, Gely

Faith. Hope. Love

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There is always a light in a dark space, why should I be scared when i’m with God ? My life is safe and for who or what shall I fear ?

Everyone has it, those dark hours when nothing seems to be right. Those days when people are mean to you and want to see you fail in life. Remember there is always a light breaking through the dark, that light is the light of God who’s trying to tell you something. Even when your hearing voices that are telling you otherwise. You don’t have to worry, God is watching over you. Come to him with whole your heart and he shall save you.

Psalm 27:4

“One thing I ask from the LORD, this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple.”

Xo, Gely